Wednesday, August 31, 2011

The Getting Over It Part.

I haven't posted in almost a month, and I've really missed it. School has just been super crazy lately and I haven't had a second to post anything.

Life has been interesting. I'm single for the first time in almost two years, and I really don't know how I feel about it. On one hand, it's really nice to be able to talk and flirt with whoever I want, but honestly, I miss having one person in my life who calls me beautiful and is always there for me. Now I have to actually get my act together and find new people to hang out with. I still have my best friends, and friends from choir, but losing someone you were that close to for the past two years has been very hard. Please pray for me <3

On a happier note, my senior year has been amazing so far, and I'm really looking forward to homecoming in the next two weeks! :) I'm bringing my best friend Christen, since I've had enough of boys.


Sunday, August 14, 2011

Lonely Trains

This is a poem I wrote a couple years ago that I just found in my room the other day. It's kind of stupid, but I thought I'd post it anyway.

Lonely Trains

Lonely trains, they're rolling
Along the dingy, darkened track
A shriek arises from them
In my heart I know they're never coming back.

For like the lonely heart they wail
For their broken loves they sing
This world is one universal pain
And our cries are one syncronized ring.

The racing rivers and channeling streams
It's like they float along our dreams
And the smoke that arises from the brick stack
Is a lost love now gone, and never coming back.


Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Edge Of Seventeen

I can't believe it... Today is my 17th birthday.

I feel soo incredibly old.. For me, this isn't just a birthday, it's the start of my last year of childhood.
I don't want to grow up. =[


Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Dear Dad,

I honestly don't know what I would do without you.

You're my life raft when I'm drowning in the ocean. I would not have made it through the last few months without you. You're the only man I truly need in my life<3

I love you so much.

Even if I don't always show it.

Even if I get angry with you.

Even if I act ungrateful.

Even if I'm distant.

Even if we aren't speaking.

You're my hero, and I admire you soo much. If I don't accomplish anything else in my life, I just hope I can say at the end of it that I was like you. That I was honest, caring, genius, happy, spiritual, and the best person I possibly could have been.

I hope you read this Dad, because I'm sure you don't hear words like this very often.